Friday, December 3
@7:14 PM
Here I'm sitting in my office..
Waiting for my colleague to pick us up from dinner..
Seems that the things that happen nowadays seems to be synchronised!
Everything happen at the same time!
Calls come in at the same time..
Msgs come in at the same time..
Pple walk in at the same time..
All are significant pple to me..
I guess only [insert name] knows wad i'm talking abt..
I tot the worst is over.. BUt it seems like its not really over..
I'm not avoiding.. I just dunwan things to turn ugly..
I dunwan us to hate each other..
I dunno how to comfort u.. dunno how to make u feel better..
I dunno how to express myself.. I dunno wad shld i do right now...
I dunno what can i do.. I dunno which path to take..
i dunno.. i dunno.. i dunno.. i dunno... i really dunno
I had nv changed..
Perhaps feelings had changed.. I admit, but was nv totally..
If anything were to happen to u now,
my world will collaspe together with u.
I still carry the Hope of seeing us together in future..
To carry out our plans... dreams.. and the many, countless outings and trips.
It was nv totally down the drain..
Whatever's gonna happen.. i dunno..
We might meet each other on the streets in a few years time..
and might chat over a cup of coffee..
Each carrying different jobs.. but still holding on to the same dreams...
With us being more matured and u having more trust on me..
Things might be back to square 1..
After one big round, we are back together..
Realising how much we are actually meant for each other..
how much joy and tears we had for each other..
how much things we had done for each other..
how much tears was shed for each other..
how much was sacrafice for each other..
how much we missed and pinned for each other..
and the many many more...
But for now, pls.. let us both be strong for the sake of each other.
Lets begin a new chapter of our lives.. our book..
Without forgetting or hating each other..
Nv wil I hate u, my dear.. It was totally my fault..
Absolutely my fault..
I deserve it even if u were to hate me..
U brought me through happiness while I brought u through turmoil..
U gave me joy.. while i gave u tears..
U gave me wad u have, while i took away wad u love.
U healed my scars.. while i scarred you...
U gave me confidence to start all over again..
while i took away that confidence of yours..
Nv ever will i regret my decision to be with u in the 1st place..
Never.. Never...
But i can absolutely understand if u were to hate me.. loathe me..
I deserve It..
